Well, the last few days have been really bad for me. But I have a plan. So, I have something constructive to look forward to, and I’m hoping that it will work for me. Basically, I quit taking my Gabapentin because I’ve gained weight on it. Being in pain keeps me from getting the exercise that I know I need, so it’s a vicious cycle. When I first started taking Zyprexa it helped my depression so much, but that has been about 8 months ago and I only take 1/4 of a tablet because otherwise I can’t wake up in the morning. I had a really hard weekend (not that I did anything to make it difficult, it just was), and ended up going to bed at 7:00 last night and waking up still feeling tired at 7:45 this morning. My daughter was very upset that I didn’t make supper last night, but I just didn’t have the energy.
This morning my mother-in-law came to get my son, as usual, and made me a cup of tea before I sat down to work from home. I told her I’d been asleep since 7:00 last night and that I’m having a bad episode of depression. She thinks I need to get back on my medicine and take more Zyprexa, and said that she would help me with meals if I agree to see a friend of ours who is a nutritionist. This friend does it for a living, so we made an appointment for next Monday to meet with her. The first meeting is 90 minutes, and the second one is 60 minutes—where she helps you actually lay out a plan. My mother-in-law called my husband and he thinks it will be great, and that the whole family can do it. If they don’t like it, they can make something else to eat. Hmmm, not sure how that will go over, but it’s worth a try.
I do think what we eat has an effect on our brains. The main reason I’m interested though is for weight loss. I just can’t feel good about myself when I’m overweight, plain and simple. I know it sounds superficial and nutty, but it’s the truth. In my youth I was a ballet dancer, and I’ve already given up so much of that life by taking a job working in a bank and giving up teaching, I can’t stand looking at my pudgy self in yoga class either. Hopefully this will help me out. And my husband agreed to go to aquacise with me tomorrow night!
